Please bear with me as I try to make my jumbled thoughts into a cohesive post today. This little corner of the internet of mine has been both a blessing and a curse since I started blogging in 2007 (seriously, 5 years ago?? wow!). It’s such a blessing to be able to write things about family, recipes & jewelry and look back at them…enjoying memories and seeing how far I’ve come both creatively and as a person. God has used this place to encourage others in their challenges in waiting and inspire others in their creativity. I’m so grateful for that.
But I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t struggle with my blog. I struggle with the comparison trap – comparing my blog to others with thousands of followers. Comparing myself to those who have gorgeous, professional photos. Comparing myself to those who are gifted writers, who tell a beautiful story with their words. I’m there. I only follow a handful of blogs in my reader, for various reasons. I follow Ashley for her beautiful storytelling through amazing photographs. I follow Disney for her amazing creativity. I follow Katie for her beautiful missional life story (and her amazing writing skills).
I want to write content that makes people want to come here like I want to read the blogs that I do. I want to be inspiring and uplifting. I want to bring joy and encouragement to my readers. I want to have my readers be engaged and to build a community. I just think I haven’t found my blogging “voice” yet. I have a consistent core group of readers, and for that I am so grateful. Thank you to those of you who take time to comment and encourage me.
My shop is exactly where I want it to be…business is growing (and was my busiest Nov/Dec yet) but not overwhelming, while generating an income for my family. I’m exactly where God wants me to be in my shop. But the growth in readership of the blog is just not there. I’m not where I want to be with blogging – perhaps I’ve made unrealistic expectations of myself? Maybe my blog is too scattered? So I’m going to take some time to refocus and figure out what I want this space to be. Who am I blogging for? What am I blogging for? Why should people care to read my blog? I tell people all the time that I’m not a “blogger”…maybe that’s why it’s not growing? Thank you for sticking with me as I figure things out.
Current sponsorships will run until they expire in the next few days and then I’ll be taking a break from having paid sponsors. I’ve loved learning about new shops and sharing them with my readers, but I feel like my inconsistent blogging isn’t doing any good to paid sponsors right now.
In the meantime, I’m sure I’ll post randomly so you all know I’m still alive. You can still keep up with me on my very engaged Facebook page or Twitter (Instagram: amycornwell). Love you all, thanks for the support and encouragement as I take a little break from blogging.